My Journey (Intro) — Overcoming Obstacles

Everyone you meet has a story to tell, everyone has their memories to share or burdens to talk through.

I have a story. A story that forever changed my life in some bad ways but also in good ways that have truly turned into blessings. Some know my story personally, some have heard it through the grape vine, while others may be not even know who I am but can relate to the story I am about to share. Whoever you are, I hope that by sharing my journey with you, I will be able to shed some light, some insight, give answers, or some people may even be able to share the same experiences I have been through and know that they aren’t alone.

I want to inspire others who go through difficult times to see and understand the “why”. I struggled for so long with “Why?” Why did this happen to me? Why did I have to lose someone I was so close to? Why did I have to watch them die? Why did I have to be so young when it happened?

I had so many “Why’s”. I went through all the stages from denial, to anger, to ignoring, to sad, to even no emotion what-so-ever, for a time. I went through it all. I was depressed. I had anxiety. I had panic attacks. You name it, I had it.

This blog series I am about to start is going to tell my whole story. It will, I think, have about 13 parts by the time I’m done with my entire story, so stick with me!

I will share my experiences, my thoughts, my emotions, and my actions with you, in hopes that I can help at least someone struggling with similar circumstances and emotions.

The past 5 years of my life have been a whirlwind of ups and downs and so much other “crap”. But I made it out. I made it out stronger. I made it out a better ME.

So this is my story…


Thoughts? Help?! Any Advice???

I know it’s been awhile but life had been absolutely crazy and it is just going to get worse!  I have enrolled and been accepted in Graduate School and will be starting that next month.  Starting next week I am going to be working full time with my students for the summer.  Starting next weekend, I have something planned every weekend till the second weekend in July!!!  Start the chaos now!

So on to my reason for this particular blog….I have been trying to decide on what I should do for a while now and can’t seem to find the answer… Let me give you context first,

When my dad was first diagnosed with cancer 5 years ago, I went online and to book stores to try to find some help, some companionship, and some guidance.  I was searching for something or someone who could help me through what I had just been dealt in life. I searched for blogs for info on my circumstances, I tried to find books on the topics of having a dad with cancer but I really couldn’t find exactly what I was searching for.  Fast forward to 5 years later and I am still searching for that one book/blog.

So as I sit here at my dining room table tonight, sipping out of my Harry Potter coffee mug, I am debating whether to add to my chaos and start a journey of writing my own

My Harry Potter Mug.

My Harry Potter Mug.

book, a guide for those in similar situations as me. A guide so people can stop searching, as I did for so long, and start to find inspiration and answers. So my question to all of you, should I try to write a book (yikes! But might be a cool journey) or should I write a blog series dedicated to my journey and how I found myself after 5 years of being lost? Book or blog? Thoughts?

Thanks everyone for sitting here and reading this! I’m not the most exciting person in the world but I do have a story and I think that it’s worth sharing since I wouldn’t be the person I am today if it wasn’t for the things I have been through.



Inspired or just critical?

As I sit here, I am having a hard time thinking through my head, if that makes sense? My new bible was delivered today and as I opened it and began reading, I was surprised. I have been raised a Christian, specifically, a Lutheran. I thought I knew most of what the bible taught, at least the basics. But as I read Genesis 1 and 2, I realized that I had been taught what it said, but not what it meant. I purchased the life application bible about a week ago, aiming towards reading the bible and understanding it more, well I definitely will be re-learning and understanding a lot more than I thought I would have to.

So this is where I begin my newest journey, reading the whole bible, beginning to end, by reading 2 chapters a day and journaling my thoughts and revelations afterwards. Just by reading the very first 2 chapters of Genesis today, I already learned so much, but I was also left with questions.

I’m not sure if you are supposed to raise certain questions as I have but I can’t help if that is how my brain works…

So I am going to share direct words out of my journal with you, feel lucky, I never do this!

“After reading these chapters I understand more but more questions have come to light,

  • What did God do before he created us? And how long did he do “that” before he created the world?
  • Why did he feel the need for fellowship?
  • The tree of knowledge of good and evil…means evil was present before creation. So did the Devil, a fallen angel, sin before creation?
  • Why was I chosen to live in this particular time frame? Why was it Eve who was created first?

Is it wrong to have all these questions? Should I just forget about them? My brain can’t. When I am reading they just “pop” up.”

End of journal snippet.

So am I wrong for these thoughts or questions? I have so many of them. There are so many unknowns and it is mind-blowing sometimes to realize them. I do have more

My new bible and my trusty journal.

My new bible and my trusty journal.

knowledge of who God is, he created us, he loved us, and we are a creation of his love!

I am excited about this new journey I am taking, I am excited to learn more, to become closer and more understanding of God and the bible.

So tell me, what are your thoughts on this subject? Have you experienced the same thing? Learned anything?



Kinda M.I.A.

Sorry world,

I’ve kind of been m.i.a. this past week. A LOT has happened over the course of a few days in my life! It’s kind of been a whirlwind!

First off, I was offered another teaching job, but I turned it down. It would have been a full time position but in a public preschool. I thought awhile on it but I felt like I was being pulled to stay where I am, at a Christian preschool as the part time, after school teacher. I would have been making double the money if I had taken the job but something or someone was telling me, “No, stay where you are.” So I did!

That evening after deciding all this, I got a letter in the mail, I had been accepted into college again! I am going back to get my Elementary Education degree! If I would have said yes to the full time position only hours earlier, I wouldn’t have been able to go back to school! God made sure that he helped me make the right decision and He did not let me down!

Then after all that, I was approached by some friends, and asked to take on a volunteer position at River Valley, overseeing the early childhood ministry! I immediately said yes because I knew I had the time because I was only working part time still. This is an amazing opportunity for me, not only getting so much experience from it, but also being involved in something I am truly passionate about and being able to serve the community and River Valley in the presence of God!

I have been very blessed with new opportunities and exciting changes in my life the last few days! I cannot wait to experience it all. Especially since my view on life itself has changed so drastically since right before my first blog post on here.

Life is so good, so amazing, so wonderful, and I am truly blessed by the opportunities, the people, and the community God has given me.



Wait….When did this happen?

When I was younger, I always wanted to be an artist. My father was very talented and could paint anything you asked him.  I always loved when he would paint Disney characters on my pumpkins for Halloween and on my eggs during Easter.

I envied his skills for years, I always tried to paint, to draw, but could never get it right.  I just didn’t have that gene.  My grandpa also was an artist.  So obviously this talent ran in my family, but I just didn’t get it.

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Not too bad right?

Well about a year ago, I decided to pick up some oil pastels and try a sunset drawing…It didn’t turn out so bad!

Maybe I could do this thing called art.  I then came to the conclusion that I could only master oil pastels and painting was a hopeless effort.  Or so I thought…

The first time I picked up a paint brush, it seemed to just fit.  I painted away.  I seemed to be able to vision it and paint it.

This happened!

This happened!

When did I be able to do this? >>>>>

I started painting more and more. Soon I found myself thinking about painting almost every day. I just didn’t have the place to do it….

So I created my own studio. I rearranged my living room, moved my piano, and designed my painting studio. It isn’t much, just an alcove off my living room, but it works perfectly for painting. To divide the spaces, I hung a curtain so no one would see the mess and clutter of my studio. Because, be real, whose studio is clean and perfect?

my studio tonight after painting. 1.27.15

my studio tonight after painting. 1.27.15

I paint in my free time, I enjoy it so much. It is my outlet, my getaway, my haven. It calms me. I like to think I am now able to paint because my dad decided to give me his gift, his talent. Ask anyone, I could not even draw a stick person nicely before! Weird, but also really cool and I will cherish it the rest of my life. I was given something, not sure how or what, but I will forever be grateful and use my talents as much as I can.

Below are a few more of my pieces.



Oil Pastel. Made this for a friend's birthday.

Oil Pastel. Made this for a friend’s birthday.

paint. Minneapolis skyline.

paint. Minneapolis skyline.

Paint. "Gold Tears"

Paint. “Gold Tears”



Year of the Spark

Very beautiful. You have an amazing gift. Love the quirkiness of the patterns!

Mama Cormier

….another great on-line art class with Carla Sonnheim and Lynn Whipple

In December I signed up for a year long on-line art class with two great artists, Carla Sonheim and Lynn Whipple. The class is called Year of the Spark and twice a month each teacher presents a lesson and several fun assignments. So far the assignments have been designed to get our hands moving and look at art and drawing in new ways.

Carla’s first class had us drawing dozens of one line sketches of animals, flowers, and houses and then choosing one favourite and drawing it again using many different types of drawing tools. We had to choose one finished piece in the end and frame it. Here are some of my one liners and my framed piece.

IMG_3721IMG_3722IMG_3723As much as I liked my dog drawings I decided to elaborate on my birds.


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Tonight I went with my sister, brother-in-law, and my nephew to a church lifegroup.  A lifegroup is like a coordinated, thought out, themed bible study.  This lifegroup was named the Greater series.

Tonight we discussed how in our life we have felt God, God’s power, His presence.  Many stories were shared but, of course, I was too chicken to share my experience that I had last Sunday (my first blog).  It was so relevant, but opening up and being that personal with mostly strangers, it’s is very terrifying… so I opted out and fell silent.

But I definitely felt God’s presence and reassurance in those moments last Sunday during Worship.  I thought that I would never be able to really say I have felt God, or I have heard God’s voice.  Don’t get me wrong, I always believed God was real and he was with me, but I never really “felt” him.

But in those moments last Sunday, I didn’t necessarily “hear” him, the answer that I was searching for was just there…. just there in my head.  “Your dad died so he could be saved from this sinful, earthly life.” That answer/thought just popped into my mind.  And it all made sense.  Everything made sense.  My dad was better off up in heaven instead of being here in this sinful state we live in.

I had my moment!  My “AHHHH” moment with God.  I actually felt him!  I have experienced what it is like to be in God’s powerful presence and it is amazing, it is peaceful, it is indescribable.

I wear an angel necklace every day.  I have only taken it off a handful of times.  It is a necklace my dad gave me the Christmas before he passed. When he gave it to me, he told me he would always be with me, he would be my guardian angel.

My angel necklace that remains around my neck almost all the time.

My angel necklace that remains around my neck almost all the time.

Since that Christmas day, it has been worn around my neck.  I have taken it off only a few times and one time I took it off to wear a different necklace.  When I did so, I felt odd…different.  So that evening I put the angel back around my neck.  I believe that it is my security of my dad’s promise to always be looking after me, to be my guardian angel.

God has also made that promise to people.  If we keep our faith, our love, our trust in him, he will always be looking out for us.  He will always be with us.

We just have to remember to  “wear our necklaces” (keep faith, love, and trust).  Without him, we change, we feel different, we lose our way.



clothes, clothes…what else?

So if any one knows me, they know that I love to shop.  It is my stress reliever.  It calms me when I need it.  I like to go shopping alone.  I like to be anonymous, shop through stores, and I also just love clothes.

My clothes tell you my mood. If you see me in yoga pants and a sweatshirt, I am probably feeling lazy and tired.  If I am in my favorite clothes out of my closet, I am feeling geared up and ambitious.


Yesterday’s outfit was African inspired.

I didn’t have time to post this yesterday, but I wanted to post my ootd (outfit of the day).

I like to mix and match different prints and patterns.  I think that an outfit shouldn’t be “matchy”, it should show your personality and my personality has many different sides and aspects.

Today, for example, I am just wearing tennis shoes, jeans, a printed shirt with my favorite band, and a zip-up gray hoodie. I am feeling relaxed today.  I had CPR/first aid training till late last night so I am just trying to relax before heading to work this morning.

Now, I am going to go grab a cup of coffee and read a book.

Hope you are all having a nice day as I am!



Remind Me Again

so cool.

Technology In Education

As teachers we are constantly needing to communicate with students, other teachers, parents, and other stake holders in the educational process.


Great care must be taken to secure the student’s contact information and protect yourself from potentially career threatening liabilities.  Remind101 (now makes the process easy and secure.

Remind is a web site using the twitter engine to send text messages to groups of students, parents, or anyone you choose.  The text messages are sent from a third party phone number and can not be replied to in any way.  While it may seem a bit frustrating at first, you can see how this is necessary to protect both student and teacher from any possible hint of impropriety.  The message is sent from the web site by the teacher to groups of students.  Each students receives the same message.  It is impossible to sent a private message to a…

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I honestly do love my job…



I have an amazing job, with the best co-workers, a supportive administration, and loving students. Everyday I get the honor of spending my time teaching Kindergarten babies that learning is fun. We dance and sing and create and make memories together. And at the end of the year, despite all the stress of the year, I will (ugly) cry because my school babies will leave my room for the last time.

Despite all those wonderful feelings I have about my job, I still battle with myself regularly because I have this strong desire to stay at home with my own baby. Some days, like the hard school days, I really wish I was at home. And then the lightbulb moments happen, or a student does exactly what I asked or taught and I remember why I come to work.
Prior to becoming a mommy, I never saw myself as a…

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